toothache and nightmares

total pain in the ass man. cba to go to college today. i should probably just drop out and open a bookshop or smth....

I feel well bored and lonely now. I've been with Lewis pretty much constantly since Wednesday lunchtime, and I was really used to having him around and just going for a cuddle whenever I like. Now I'm not going to see him until Friday night, and it's a bit depressing tbh. Long distance relationships suck man!

he is nice

I spent basically all week with him. I rather like him.

Half Term

I flippin' love half term. Can't be doing with college, man. It's a pain in the a-hole. Anywhoozles, I had a bit of a psycho day yesterday, ended up packing a back with a jumper, pair of jeans and 4 pairs of socks. I decided that I had to go to Lewis' house right that second for reasons that are inappropriate to blog about. I'd set off for the bus and everything but I was 20 minutes early and was just sitting in the park and it was starting to hail when my mum rang me up and talked me into coming home. I was angry at the time, but I'm glad she did that in the end. We ended up making an agreement that I can go to Lewis' on Wednesday and stay right through 'til Sunday, when I'll be going to Izzy's house for a lovely tea party :).
Sorry for the dramatic blog, but yesterday was dramatic. I shall be seeing my big sister later today who I love and I'm very excited about that! But until then I'll be playing minecraft :p

30. what changed this month and what i hope to happen next month

I've been ill... i've been to paris. I hope to just be happy to be honest!

29. a picture of myself

AHA! Bet you wasn't expecting that :P My friend Izzy drew this, I love it.

28. the month I was happiest and why

It was probably December 2010-January 2011 because I saw Lewis lots then. Not very long but honestly that's it. Just love spending so much time with him, I never get sick of him.

27. talk about my siblings

I have two half siblings, one way older and one way younger.
I hardly ever see my older sister, and even though there's like a 20 year age gap we get on really well.
My little sister is the best little sister ever. She's so funny and cute and mental, I love her :)

26. my religious beliefs

I believe in believing what you want to believe. Whatever suits. As long as it doesn't hurt anyone, I see nothing wrong with a little bit of faith. Personally, I haven't found anything that I believe in enough, but if anything comes along I might go for it.

25. 10 ways to win my heart

1. be fairly tall
2. have blondey-browney hair
3. play guitar
4. have lovely teeth
5. have gorgeous bluey greeny eyes
6. be funny
7. be romantic and sweet
8. deal with all the crap I give them
9. smell nice
10. be called Lewis Konrad Richerd

wait a second...

24. things i want to say to 5 different people

To Lewis - I'm so sorry for being crap all the time, I'll try to be how I used to be. You don't deserve the shit I give you

To my mum - Give me a break

To my teachers - Sorry for not giving a shit

To tiscali - Sort your lives out

To Jim - Help me make fix computer.

23. something i always think "what if..." about

What if I stayed at the main stage after Queens of the Stone Age

22. 10 things about me people don't really expect

1. my rubik's cube solving abilities
2. the fact i can play several instruments
3. that despite my generally sunny demeanor, most of the time i'm quite unhappy
4. my secret love for ABBA
5. that i have a boyfriend
6. i'm scared of the dark
7. my misanthropic tendencies
8. that i have a baby siser
9. that i'm overweight
10. the fact my hands are bananas

21. something i can't seem to get over

Why I made so many bad decisions last summer

20. the last argument i had

Well, it's kinda going on right now. I argue with Lewis so much nowadays and I hardly ever see him and it just really upsets me. it's always something really stupid too. The good times are really good though, so it's worth it...

19. something that never fails to make you feel better

• his smile
• malteasers
• school of rock
• crying (sounds weird, but I always feel better after a good old cry)
• cuddles
• the sims
• looking at the stars

18. disrespecting parents

Uhhhh... i try not to do it?

17. things that make me scared

• The thought of everyone I love leaving me
• The future
• The dark
• Hospitals
• Getting buried alive?

16. 3 things i am proud of about my personality

This is gonna be a hard one... I don't really like anything about myself! It's worth a bash anyway

1. I can be quite funny sometimes I think?

Okay, after half an hour I can't think of any more. Sorry!

15. the best thing that happened to me this week

Seeing Heather for the first time in months and going to see my boyfriend yesterday and basically just spending a day cuddled up in bed. I managed to get a lift to his house which was pretty mint, and we basically just cuddled and I cooked us enchiladas for dinner (he grated the cheese though!). We then watched What's Eating Gilbert Grape? as well and it's a mint film. We went into York today as well and went to Starbuck's and had some massive frappuccinos and just laid on the sofas for ages. Ahhhhhhhh, I'll be going to college again tomorrow which I'm pretty scared about :s. Sure I'll be fine though. And my jacket STILL hasn't come and I ordered it like 2 weeks ago.

14. something disgusting i do

• eat a whole packet of jaffa cakes in one sitting
• act like a dick to my friends
• don't exercise... AT ALL

Just stuff like that really

13. a date i would like to go on

I'm not really too fussy about dates to be honest, I just love any time I get to spend with my loved one tbh, cause I don't exactly get lots of it. One of my favourites has to be New Year's Eve where we just sat together on my bed and ate ice-cream, it was lovely! Pretty easy to please tbh...

12. things i want to say to an ex

What the fuck was I thinking?

11. my current relationship.

My current relationship is with a weirdo called Lewis Richerd, and I've been going out with him for 3 and a half months (which is a massive achievement for me).
We first met at Leeds Festival, back in August. It was while we were waiting for Queens of the Stone Age. At that point I had just embarked on some weird disgusting fling with someone who I regret infinitely. I saw Lewis come over and it some how made me happier? Turns out the people I was with in the crowd were friends with him, and I'd seen him a couple of times in the previous evenings. I'd thought he was pretty attractive, and so I was really excited when he came to stand behind me. I ended up saying to myself, "C'mon Brigitte, don't be stupid. This is just another random guy you've met in a crowd, there's been thousands of them! Nothing will ever come of it!" but when I looked at him, and realised I actually preferred him to the person I was currently doing before I'd even spoken to him properly... well, I knew I wanted him.
So we got talking, and I thought he was really nice and funny, and when the music started I did a particularly slutty thing and made an effort to dance close to him. Although I later found out he was doing the same thing, so it's all good, isn't it?
Anyway, after that brief encounter I saw that the people I was with at QOTSA had added him on facebook, so I added him too. We gradually got talking, I ended the other guy, and I discovered that we had pretty much the same taste in... everything! He is the only person who has ever understood the reference that my hotmail (sigh) address makes. We pretty much have the same brain (except mine's prettier!). We decided to meet up a couple of times, and the dates we went on were lovely! And pretty soon we ended up making it 'facebook official'. And the rest is history!
He really is one of the most amazing people I've ever met. He's attractive, funny, nice, cool; and for some weird reason he loves me! He puts up with all the crap I give him (which is really too much), he's amazing at cheering me up, we have lots of laughs together. He's pretty damned close to perfect, and I never want to lose him.
Essay over.