Happy Wedding Day

friendships

I think I had a better sense of who I was when I was 13. I knew who I was friends with, and who I wasn't.

Now I don't really fit into any kind of friendship group. A lot of my friends went to different colleges, and the ones that stayed dispersed even more. I think I'm kind of a drifter now. I suppose it's good in some ways, because it means there's a whole load of people you're kinda friendly with, and you can hang out with. But, if anything, I feel even lonelier. I feel like an outsider now. I don't have any kind of 'unit' to belong to. I thought I'd be the last person to admit it, but humans definitely need to feel like they belong somewhere, otherwise they're just adrift...

One thing I love a lot about Lewis, is that everything can be solved with a kiss fight.

I love him.

Coming home to an empty house...

... is very weird. My mum is at work, and my sister isn't here. After spending pretty much a solid week and a half with your boyfriend, any kind of aloneness is bizarre. All there is to eat in the house is easter eggs, and I'm not sure which are mine. I've poured myself a Bailey's though, and that's making everything better.

I've had a pretty good holiday. I saw Dinosaur Pile-Up for something like the 5th time last week? I think I've officially made it to creepy stalker status. Then Lewis and I went camping in some obscure field on the outskirts of Whitby on Monday. I got very embarrassingly drunk, and there's someone who isn't exactly in my good books right now. I got over it though. Then we double-dated with Laura and Gage on Thursday (cuties!) before we went back to his. Since then I've just been catching rays, trampolining and playing Pokemon with my man. Haven't done any semblance of college work though. Oh well! Screw it.

annoyance

I feel like my friends are leaving me. One of my closest friends barely even talks to me. I see her nearly everyday at college but she barely acknowledges me any more. She has a new group of friends that are obviously vastly more interesting and fun than I am. Not to mention my friends that have gone away to different colleges. I barely ever see them these days, and I think most of them don't even like me. It's actually pretty depressing. It's like no one has the time for each other any more. I wish it could be last summer again, except with Lewis and less stupid mistakes. I'd be well happy then :(

Skinny Love

The thing I probably desire most in life is to be slim. I've been overweight since I was about 11 (and before you deny it, I actually am. My bmi is appaling). I always used to worry that it would make me unattractive, and that boys wouldn't like me. Even now I have Lewis, I'm a lot more insecure. I always worry I'll look disgusting naked, or that I'll look really fat next to him, and even the fact he can't pick me up even though he's way taller than me. It's really depressing. But the worst part of it is that I have virtually no drive to get thinner. I end up crying about it and then filling my face with jaffa cakes. I'm too lazy/unfit to exercise too. All a bit of a dilemma really...

I'm bored and want to talk about my boyfriend

Can you answer 40 questions about just 1 person?

Don’t change the friend half way through .

1) What’s their name?

Lewis Konrad Richerd

2) Does he or she have a boyfriend/girlfriend?

Yes, me!

3) Do you get along with this person all the time?

Does anyone?

4) How old is the person?

17 and a half

5) Has he/she ever cooked for you?

He's made me breakfast in bed if that counts?

6) Is this person older than you?

No, 1 week younger.

7) Have you ever kissed this person?

Obv!

8) Are you related to this person?

That would be fucking bizarre...

9) Are you really close to him/her?

Why else would I be answering all these questions about him?

10) Nickname?

Shithead? JK!

11) Do they have a nickname for you?

Nah, we don't really have names for each other apart from our real names

12) How many times do you talk to this person in a week?

Pretty much constantly... I have a bit of a problem

13) Do you think they will repost this?

Unless he turns into a different person, no.

14) Could you live with this person?

Yeah, it would be ace.

15) Why is this person your number 1?

Errr... because I love him?

16) How long have you known this person ?

Since August 27th, 2010

17) Have you ever been to the mall with this person?

We've been shopping xD

18) Have you ever had a sleepover with this person?

Yeah ;)

19) If you ever moved away would you miss this person?

I think I'd make him move...

20) Have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person?

Probably :L  

21) Do you know everything about this person?

I'd like to think I do, but I probs don't.

22) Would you date this person’s siblings?

Nah, I'm alright thanks :p

23) Have you ever made something with this person?

Yeah, fajitas!

24) Have you gone skinny dipping with this person?

No, I don't think I've even been swimming since year 8, never mind naked xD

25) Is your #1 on drugs?

I hope not!

26) Have you ever worn this person’s clothes?

Yeah, he gave me his socks. TO KEEP!

27) Does this person wear your clothes?

My pyjamas on occasion ;)

28) Have you ever danced with this person?

Yeah, he's got some mooooves.

29) Have you ever heard this person sing?

Yeah. He is the singer in a band!

30) Do you and this person have a saying?

"Ahhh, that was a good day" and "Badass"

31) Do you know this persons facebook password?

No.

32) Have you and this person ever gotten into a fight that lasted more than 3 days?

Nah!

33.) Have you and this person gone clubbing?

Lewis? Clubbing? Pfffttt!

34) Do you know how to make this person happy?

Yeah, it's kinda my job.

35) Do you and this person talk alot?

Yeah... I suppose.

36) Do you like this person?

A little bit

37) Has this person yelled at you?

Yes, he's abusive :( JK!

38) Have you and this person got into a fist fight?

We wrestle! And I usually win...

39) Do you want to go out with this person?

Already am!

40) Do you want to be friends with them forever?

OBV!